A post, I think

Unfortunately, my life really isn't that exciting at the present moment, although I really wish something glorious would happen. I'm still looking for a job and getting very depressed. I'm still living at home which is slowly taking its toll on me. I have no money making it hard to do a lot. My life is an endless cycle of getting up, looking for job, sending out resumes, watching the same movies at least twice a day, and back to bed I go. I can't believe my life has been reduced to this and it is really becoming a problem. I look around and it seems as though everyone has found at least something to do. Granted, it may not be exactly what they want, but it is something. I can't even seem to find an optometrist who will let me shadow them. UGH!! I just want to run away and leave reality for a little while. I keep looking for the light at the end of the tunnel and I don't see it. Where is it again?

I did manage to see dawn this past weekend and we went to see a movie and the such, so that was nice. I also got to go to dinner,movie, and bar with Aaron and Becky which was nice as well. I'm really trying to keep in touch with people, but I just feel so unsuccessful and worthless because I really have nothing to talk to them about besides my lack of job and you can only say you are jobless so many times. I'm sure things will get better, I just hope they do soon because I'm not sure how much more of this I can take.

However, I am thankful for what I do have and very lucky to be here in Florida and not in the gulf states. My heart goes out to them. It is truly one of the worst disasters and to see what those people are going through, and will have to go through, makes me just utterly speechless and sad. I can't even watch the stuff on tv anymore because I inevitably end up crying and that is not what I need right now.

In other news, I'm addicted to the new lifehouse song and I'm not really sure why. However, i keep playing it and it makes me sad. I'm really missing having someone to talk to and just cuddle with and its funny because I'm never like this. I'm so use to being independent and I can't figure it out. Is it just the thought of the relationship, the acts of the relationship, or the person from the relationship? I guess I just need something else to take my mind off this stuff, but alas, there is nothing. I miss him.

So I'm taking suggestions for optometry school locations. I think I have it narrowed down to either Pennyslavnia, Indiana, Tennessee, and possibly Alabama, although my chances of getting in there is slim. So if anyone has any feedback about these possible locations that would be very helpful. I fear it will come down to me having to visit each of these places which will require a nice chunk of change, but this is the next four years of my life so I guess it is worth it. Any thoughts? Yes, there is a school in florida but not really one I care to attend...

Post done!